Particles of Reality: Obsession

While I was enjoying the base game, I do think the wording should be changed on Brandon's patch. I went into it thinking it would have references to underage sexual trauma as part of the mc's backstory but the descriptions and visuals were actually so graphic and written in such a sexual way that I was actually uncomfortable having the patch on my computer. It seems like almost all of that patch is focusing on the graphic sexuality of underage characters in a way that I did not find clear beforehand and would not have been comfortable with had I known.

The sexual content was also not text-only in my opinion. There was nothing explicit (from as far as I played in the patch) but there were illustrations.  I'm not trying to start a fight but I want others to be aware that some of it felt like it was written to be titillating instead of traumatic and there are visual elements to it as well that were not disclosed.

I think this visual novel has done some permanent damage to my mental health, but I'm not regretting reading it. I'm rooting for Brandon no matter what. And I have to say that I really hate Sebastian, Either because he's triggering some bad memories from my own past, and because he's so sure of himself. He doesn't see any wrongness in his own actions, he has almost no regrets.

PS Alexander is fine though, I liked him, but I guess it is only because he doesn't have his own route...yet ;)

will there be sequel? or update? i want to know what happens in particles reality, i finished chapters 5 and im left hanging not knowing whats next. also i love brandon's route the most hahahah... sigh..

Hey I purchased the game and when I unzip the file, the game folder is empty? I was able to download it once before with no problem but I'm currently using a new laptop. 

This game needs more content warnings. i dont know what it would say though meaby something like "WARNING THIS GAME IS MORE FUCKED UP THAN YOU THINK" i am completely fine with all of the cw's but i still got traumatized from the level of well i dont know i'm crying while writing this.

so to summarize games not for me but other wise it is a 7/10 

There's one thing I wanted to ask. Does Alexander has a soulmate as well? And if he finds her, is there a chance that his "religion" will go through some changes?

I am not able to access Brandon's route even though I downloaded the patch and moved it into the game folder :/

It's a pity that the author isn't accepting new signups on patreon at this time. I would gladly support this brilliant project.

do you ever plan on putting this on sale anytime soon, I wanna get it but the 30-dollar price is looking heavy ngl   

Holy moly that was a fucking roller coaster. Thanks a bunch for creating this, especially considering it's such a dark otome visual novel that spans 20+ hours of gameplay is incredibly rare. I've been searching for something like this for years, so major kudos to you!

Heads up for (SPOILERS) in my super long review!

Sebastian: Initially, Sebastian's route didn't click with me. I was surprised because I usually love yandere characters. His route started off strong, which put me off. I also kinda pissed with the MC at first with her sense of danger lol. However, when the story branches, I was instantly hooked by Sebastian's crazy stories. Like, this dude is a mess, and even a therapy can’t fix him. He’s completely delulu and hypocritical and it's amusing how everyone interacting with him ends up going crazy. His twin, Alexander, is my favorite side character in his route. I like his role in Sebastian’s route is being the sane person with a horrible personality.Despite Sebastian not being in his right mind, Alexander always tries to support him. I was disappointed that Isabella didn't have more screen time; I love her badass and sweet attitude. I could imagine her and the MC being best friends.

Julian: Okay so, before his route, I didn't like Julian in Sebastian's route because of his obnoxious behavior. I expected his route to be similar to Sebastian's but more irritating. Hoo boy I was so wrong. I actually enjoyed Julian's route more than Sebastian's. It felt refreshing, maybe because he's easier to talk to than a wall (Sebastian). I was particularly pleased with the MC's behavior in his route. For whatever bad things Julian has done is merely a child’s play to her and it’s hilarious. And she’s cooperative and calm with his behavior which is super surprising to me (i guess that she’s super into Julian but still-). And I know this is weird but I kinda like Brandon and Julius get along lol. The Ethereals' frustration in this route is comical; imagine being so frustrated watching a girl ignore all the red flags. I was disappointed that we didn't get to learn more about Ash; I was hoping for a dedicated route for him.

Brandon: First, I appreciate you for putting his route as an option and not a requirement to access the secret route. Even though I could have avoided his route after encountering this "Trash" character in the previous two routes, my perfectionism got the better of me, and I decided to brave it. I kept hoping to find some tiny bit redeeming qualities in Brandon, maybe some glimpse of decency beneath his fucked up behavior. But— Sigh… He turned out to be the biggest red flag of a love interest in the history of otome games I've played. The fact that he's the MC's actual blood-related brother and still pursues of doing, that, despite feeling guilty, he DOESN’T STOP. He’s manipulative, egotistical, selfish and annoyingly possessive. Yes, his traumatic past in the mafia explains why he sucks. But the moment when he claims to care about the MC, I said “Fuck this guy! He only thinks about himself and his d*ck, not HER!” It's disheartening to see the MC's background reveal itself in this light. I ended up learning more about the MC than Brandon throughout the story. I must say, I impressed you got the guts for making him a route.

Quinn: Quinn's route was the one I looked forward to after dealing with those three psychopaths. Surprisingly, his route was shorter than the others, which disappointed me. After playing his route, I felt a strong desire to hug him tightly after all the hardships he endured. Sebastian was super fucking annoying in this route. I could tolerate him in other routes because he was up against other psychopaths rivals, but Quinn??? Even Brandon was decent in this route, he even respected him! When Sebastian said those cruel things to Quinn like none of his business, that drew the last line for me. I was super pissed lol, Quinn deserves so much better. Maybe because his route was shorter, I felt like I still didn't learn enough about him. Perhaps he's just a very private person, but compared to the others, his bond with the MC felt lacking. His side stories was very nice to see, and I loved the banter between him and Julius.

V: I'll refer to him as V since I don't know much about him, which makes sense since his route is in the DLC. My first impression of him was... pity. I guessed he's trapped in a time-loop between realities, which is incredibly distressing. His situation seems more depressing than other MCs experiencing time-loop stories I've read. I don’t know if I’m wrong, but but from what I’ve gathered reading his route, he’s experiencing countless of time loops and since there’s other worlds/realities, he also experienced that too for another gazillion times. If that’s true, then holy shit this man desperately needs closure, something more peaceful than death. I’m actually excited to see his route latter because this man looks tired and just need some rest. No wonder he always orders black coffee lol.

MC: Before passing judgment on this girl, let's quickly review her background and why she acts this way. She grew up isolated, lacking social experience, and suffered abuse from her mother and brother, leading to a strong but strange attachment to them. Her brother was her only friend, her sole reliance. Her father know her situation but didn’t do shit. Manipulated from a young age, she still struggles to discern right from wrong. Yeah… From this, I could say this girl is a survivor. Given her past, it's a miracle her personality is as pleasant as it is. At first, I found her frustrating, wondering how she could be blind to all the red flags. It’s like watching her dancing through traps blindfolded. Then I thought maybe it's a trope of the game, so I tried to ignore my irritation and see how things played out. It honestly entertaining to watch how miserable she is. Then came Julius's route. Initially, I thought she was just infatuated, but when she witnessed his crime without a flinch, I was surprised. Then I thought, oh, this time it wasn't her friends and she's from a mafia so she's used to see this. Maybe I missed something about her? The Brandon route solidified my understanding of her character. It painted a clearer picture of her for me. One thing that frustrated me was her failure to learn from her past mistakes. She understood the consequences but didn't try to avoid them. And... I pity for her being oblivious by that.

Once again, thank you for creating this game. It's a rare gem in the otome genre, and I eagerly await more. Even though it's not finished, I'm satisfied with the depth and complexity of the story. Reading this VN was like watching a dumpster fire drama with no hope of a good outcome (thanks Sebby). I'm particularly looking forward to Alexander's and V's routes, especially Alexander's because he's my favorite character in the game. Both of them have the potential to be great LIs, but given this game's nature... well, we'll see about that.

My hopes for the next story? Hm... I'd love to see more of Isabella; she has a fantastic personality. Also, in future installments, I hope the MC develops a stronger sense of observation and a backbone.

And lastly, a heartfelt sentiment: FUCK THAT CAT!

This game is amazing, love the writing. If I could make a request, it'd be the ability to change the pronouns of the player character. It'd make all the boys and non-binary people very happy  🙂

Been waiting for this game since the first demo, bought it on release and devoured it on my days off work, finished it already.

It has given me trust issues and a dislike of cats (white cats, specifically).

Signs of a brilliant game!

Btw, the letters from Quinn still end in cQuinn, except the letter in the what if scenario. There are a few grammar mistakes but nothing detrimental to my enjoyment of the game. Example - on one of the side stories (I think it was a mini story? I should have kept a record, sorry!) one of the lines refers to the MCs therapist as 'the kid shrinks', I believe it's supposed to be the kid's shrink lol Just a little typo that gave me the giggles

do u have to buy the game in order to access the brandon patch? bc i followed the instructions (downloaded the file & moved it to the "game" folder) but i still can't find brandon's route.

is brandon an RO in this demo

Is it possible to romance Alexander as well?)

I don't know if it's just me, but it comes out when I start:

"While running game code:

ScriptError: could not find label 'w1_r1_m1'. "

And I don't know what to do??

(Edit: For anyone reading this who thinks they wouldn't be able play this because of the sibling incest, I would say give it a try anyway. If you've seen Game of Thrones and were able to watch Cersei and Jamie together without getting overwhelmed with disgust and shutting off the TV, it's a similar kind of thing with this game. The MC is incredibly well defined with a super specific backstory and life, so it's literally impossible to self-insert with her. So, it's essentially just like watching Cersei and Jamie Lannister on GoT, something totally outside yourself with a life of its own, and you are just kind of along for the ride on the sidelines.)

I have been playing the Patreon version and I have a lot of thoughts on this game, so I figured this would be a good place to put them. 

I want to preface this by saying that I only have so many points of constructive criticism because I see huge potential in this game, and because I really like it and want it to succeed!

First things first, I like the framing device of the other-wordly beings outside of space and time, and how they occasionally have commentary. I feel like you could do a lot more with this concept, I actually wish they had a bit more to say! For example, the moment where one of them says something like "oh , did you see that shadow in the window?" that would have been a great moment to actually put a subtle shadow there. (I actually rewound the game to see if I missed one but there was nothing haha.)

So, I understand that you need everyone in this universe to be very threatening and scary and basically unstoppable, for story reasons, but after the 30th time of someone saying "we can't call the police/ask anyone for help, it's pointless", it starts to feel a little silly. These start to feel more like supervillains in a comic book than actual human beings after a while, especially when you start to actually think these things out from a logical perspective and brainstorm ways you could actually solve MC's problems (go to the news, record everything on your phone, etc etc,). I have a few ideas for how this could be solved: 

1. Make this a period piece. You could set this in the 70s or 80s to a time when the mafia was an actual, legitimate threat, where no one had a cell phone, where there were no security cameras on every street corner, where the police really *were* useless (particularly when it came to taking things like stalking and harassment seriously) or

2. You could keep the modern setting, but since this is an alternate universe, just make it so there is no police force, perhaps it's some sort of anarchical society ruled by crime with a splash of vigilante justice.

Either one of these would be an improvement, because as it stands now I get extremely distracted by how nonsensical the behavior and actions of the MC are (like, lady, the FBI designed the witness protection program *specifically* with the mafia in mind. Go to your nearest FBI field office and call it a day lol).

Another thing is that it would be nice if there were at least a few happy endings? Granted, I haven't gotten them all, so maybe there is like... one among the 20 or so bad ones, but the shock of the bad endings wears off after like the 4th or 5th one and you just become kinda numb to it, as a player. I think the game would benefit from more of a variety of good vs bad endings to keep things fresh (that being said, I understand if, thematically, you want to keep this theme of "no, it's all bad, life sucks" cus life sure does! haha)

This last thing is more of a minor nitpick, but whoever drew the nude scenes of MC doesn't seem to understand how dark skin works as they gave her like bright pastel pink nipples, despite her being dark-skinned lol. As a POC this really stood out and kinda took me out of the story because I was so flabbergasted when seeing it. Pigmentation on melanin doesn't work like that :) You/the artist can study the figures of dark skinned bodies to see how it normally works for us, if you genuinely didn't know!

Again, I want to emphasize that I think you have a really nice game here, and with some tweaks, my opinion of it would be through the roof. I also love the sprites, it's not often you see sprites in an indie otome game that are actually attractive and pleasing to look at! (Quinn's is my favorite!)

Nice work :)

I think this is 1 of only 2 VNs that has held my attention this thoroughly, but it is nothing short of infuriating when I get to those points where there's 2 choices but I'm only able to click 1 of them (& it's not always the 1 I want to click). It's so frustrating to not be able to actually choose at those points.  I realize it's a demo, but man!  I never ever subscribe to anyone or anything on Patreon, since I honestly can't afford it, but it's killing me not being able to see the other versions of this story. Honestly most of the free stuff on this site has been crap so far, & this is the first 1 I'm this truly invested in.  If only...

edit-ok, i had only done sebastian's & julian's demo routes when i posted this, & both of them had 1 choice i vehemently disagreed with, but was forced into, & then it got even worse in quinn's route, when the inability to actually choose what you wanted to choose made the main character into the most idiotic bitch/hypocrite ever... not cool... i literally ended up hating my own character in quinn's demo route, just because i wasn't actually able to choose what i actually wanted to choose

also, might wanna mention that there's no sex in the demo other than just a tiny bit of dream-nudity, most of the warnings on this page don't really apply to the demo at all, honestly

Quick question, will the full game be free or will we have to pay?

Oh I love this game, the deepness of characters and their background, the writing, the art, - and I'm impatiently waiting for full release!

P.S. Will the Brandon's route be released as a DLC? I'm very much interested in this one